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Huwebes, Hunyo 30, 2011

Back to skul.

After 4 years, i'm back as a student but this time not in a fulltime basis, because i still have work to consider in order for me to sustain all my needs and my longing to finish my degree. Anyway, i just missed the fun of doing homeworks, projects, studying and all.

Looking back.. i was so helpless when my freedom as a student was withdrawn due to financial problem, i felt like no one cares for me, i mean no one cares for my education. Someone tried to help me, but nothing happened. I know ate did her best to support me and hopefully continue to support me all through out my stay in our school, but everything changed and i understand that she needs to support her family on top of me.

I have this cousin(madre), i consider her as (mangtas na madre) for some she's mabait and all, for me she's totally NOT!!! She was the only person who suggested to stop the financial support coming from my ate(sister of that freak madre) for my studies. I cried, stumbled, felt like someone betrayed me and the most hurtful part is, she's my first degree cousin.

I think life is really like this for me. I need to stand on my own and prove to them i can get the things i want especially the freedom they took from me (my education). Waittttttttttttttttttttttttttt...this is suppose to be a happy blog. Well going back to the title (back to skul), i hope i can make it to the top, finish this with flying colors. And i hope as well, my family will be proud for my achievements --- working student ---.

Martes, Hunyo 21, 2011

Kahapon at Ngayon ( the face behind the mask )

My past isn't that bad unlike with others, it's just that my past taught me how to wear a mask in order for others to know that i exist. It's been like 5 years now that i'm wearing this, and as the year goes by, im enjoying and still enjoying having this. Physically speaking this is not me, the face that I'm wearing now is not the real me(weh?).

Confidence wise, i don't have that since i suffered from emotional abuse way back from my teenage days. This might be the saddest part in my life that i can think of. Others would say "lahi lagi kag itsura sa imu mga igsoon" " ai mas gwapo gud imu kuya," these line are so over used. Yes they have the looks and brains as well and no one can deny that. I will never forget this person named NiƱo who said "kaligo ug init tubig para maputi ka" this freak guy helped me realize that i need to do something for myself, i mean the way i look.

Furthermore, i still have friends and barkadas that never look me down despite of these criticisms from others, we have group named ZERKS, all kinds of fun and firsts time i experienced from them (inum,sigarilyo,x-rated movies and all).
And now, facing the reality, i have this...

For those people who used to bully me because of how i look, you can now check my facebook account and see WHO'S JOEL now.

Huwebes, Hunyo 9, 2011

Katotohanan(the truth)


Ilan tao ba sa mundo ang nagtatago sa isang maskarang mapanlinlang? Ito ba'y isang paraan para matakasan ang hubad na katotohanan?
Nilikha ko itong panihang ito di para talikuran ang nakaraan o takasan ang tunay na  tumatakbo sa kasalukuyan.Mahirap sabihin na ito'y isang likhang isip lamang, subalit ito'y base sa tunay kong karanasan.( hindi ko alam kung panu sisimulan ang kwento ng aking sarili, bahala n c batman).
Tell me more about yourself...joel axalan.
I consider this as one of the questions that im having a hard time to answer, not because im afraid to tell who am i nor telling the real me in writing but because im confuse is to where and how to start telling who the real me. I can't say discreeting will help me, but putting myself into private will help from the criticisms in public.Writing this would be the sign that im ready to share what i have, mentally, emotionally and physically.
Sa isang akda na nabasa ko kamakailan lang, panu kung lahat ng nagpapatibay na ako ay anak ng aking mga magulang ay PEKE!! San ako magsisimulang mgsulat?Wala lang bigla ko lang naisip baka may ganun.(balik tayo sa diskasyon).Let me start, In 22 years of existence i would say, medyo masaya ang disposisyon ko bilang isang nilalang dito(pak!!), sa kadahilanang may pamilya akong masasandalan, mga kapatid, mga kaibigan, mga nagmamamal at minamahal.Looking back to the years that im starting to know what the world is, its a bit hard knowing that comparison and judgements ang nangingibabaw sa lahat. Lima kaming mgkakapatid at ako ang bunso, kami ay namumuhay bilang isang karaniwang pamilya. Kung yaman ang paguusapan wla kami nun,and  i can consider my family belongs to the middle class section in the society. Some says that being the youngest is the best part of the family, well i would say not at all, masasayahan kaba kung lahat ng kilos at galaw mo ay pinupuna at kinukompara sa iba.( duh.)
My friends,officemates,classmates,roomates,seatmates, etc. they used to call me with my first name JOEL, but for those people who knows me well call me with my nickname WHENG.

meaning of my name: JOEL

You Are Level-Headed and Trustworthy

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.
You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

i sOO agree:))

Martes, Hunyo 7, 2011

First time (masakit)

Never in my wildest dream that i will be hospitalized.The fact that, i can't take the environment having sick people beside me or seeing people suffer from their own sickness and all ( i just don't).But from what happened, i don't have a choice but to indulge myself that im part of fever+ never ending back pain.
                               I just hate seeing needles inserting any part of my body. 

                                     Buti na lng i have these special persons beside me.:))

Lunes, Hunyo 6, 2011


The skill of being a writer, is it made or born to be? How i wish im one of those people who were born to be a writer, not in magazines or in any news papers but, just a simple note that i can express my ideas. I guess in writing i can use any kind of medium(writing materials and language being used). I would say this the first and official note i truly made, i dont care if the grammar i used is incorrect or the sentence constructions are all wrong, definitely i will cater any feedback from you guys:)

Di' sa naiingit, i just checked my friends profile and they have these notes that are very interesting and hindi boring basahin, i guess they have the skill and the brain as well. I asked someone "panu maging writer?" He answered, "kung unsa imu maisip,put that into writings".And yes, this will be the start of my blogging career (palag).

I am a beginner in this so called writing industry, i have my coach that i can ask, certified blogger and all. Di pala basta2 ang ang mgsulat, my rules n dapat i follow and i should know the path of my writings. This is a bit challenging for me, bcoz i have never been a writer before.

The more write ups i make, the more knowledge and experience i will get. I will start reading blogs from my friends. The end for now.