2011 - A FreeView

A sneak  preview of what's best that happened for the year 2011. I got this idea of posting a year end thingy from my previous boardmate, it's a sort of reminiscing the past events who made a mark of what's ME in the year 2011. Let's go back to the moments that i feel, happy, blessed and in love.

A roller coaster ride with a kick of sweetness and bitterness i would say, I never thought happiness won't last long, and it's not about finding what makes you happy but the simple things that you have and the person's involved on it will definitely complete the sense of happiness. "Not what we say about our blessings, but how we use them, is the measure of our thanksgiving." I'm thankful having these group of people who were part of the year 2011, my friends, soooperfriends, kat-kats, closefriend and of course my family.

WORK

  " I came, I saw, I conquer" 

- Who made me realized that money isn't easy to get. Sleepless days, toxic working hours, pressures and all are equal to money. But at the end of the day it's the thought of having great experience from the company i had with.

OFFICEMATES

- Working in a corporate world won't be complete without having friends/officemates. These people gave worth for my stay in my job.

SOOPERFRIENDS

 -It's so nice to feel that you have priceless people who understands and care for you above all.  But it is nicer to have them in these moments....PARTEY PARTEY..

OPPORTUNITIES

- It's when the time that we think about the future...

KEYS

 - These keys helped me realized the value of trust, understanding, faithfulness and love. It's when my heart opened to the responsibility of having unbeatable relationship.

CAREER

- Unselfish decision i made. The scar deep within...

SNOWBEAR

The source of my strength, my savior, my significant other and that's YOU. Thank you for letting me back close to God and teaching me the value of prayers. You know how i love you.^_^.

EAT PRAY LOVE. 2012

2x the Love.^_^

I can spell the happiness in three letters, and that's Y.O.U. Another month has been added to our life as partners in crime:) You made me feel the worthiness of the time that we always share together. Thanks for making me feel  the value of importance. It's such a wonderful feeling that someone cares for you and loved you all the way. 

Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing to each other but in looking outward together in the same direction. Do you know what makes our relationship so special?- it's not about how we act infront of others, but it's how we believe in what we have, and that's US.

Let's always put in our mind that mistakes come and go, but the most important thing in letting go of our mistakes is - WE LEARN. Happy 2nd .^_^. (late post)

A letter to you..

i miss you..

Was it by chance or by choice that we met? I never thought that you and i will be together as partners, i mean as lovers. If you really following my posts in facebook and in twitter, i said, "you can feel the message of the heart through writing" and yes, this is one of the ways how i will express my feelings for you.

I know we have a big differences in life, but you never tried to feel that towards me, instead you even shared what you have. Thanks for making me feel in love everyday, despite of all misunderstandings and challenges we had, we stay strong, happy and in love. Like i always said, i may not be the best partner who came into your life, but i have the most genuine feeling and love that i can show to you, though i don't have the means and the treasure, i can still show it in my own simple ways. I appreciate the fact that you let me know your past, your present and knowing you in the future with me. iheartu.

In your eyes.

There is something I can see in your eyes that no one else can see. It's the real you, the you that you don't let people see, but I do, and I love you. Whatever they say about your past, it was you before you met me but for me it's a lesson that will guide you into the life that you're longing for. 


I always believe that you can be the best person that you ever dreamed of, i can see your dedication and perseverance towards your goals, the love for your family and to all the people that surrounds you and most of all your faith for HIM above.

Happy 1st^_^

Sweet Night:)

It's been a month now that we've both decided to be more than friends.

You are mine and I know that I am yours.

I know this relationship is too young,

But i want you to know that, it's our trust that matters,

Thank you for giving that.

Its been a month now,

Since I told you, I love you.

Its been a month now,

Since you told me, I love you too.

It was the day,
That you made my heart complete.

 

We will feel ups and downs,

In griefs and laughter,

We will be together,

Hand and hand

You will be always admire.

No matter how and no matter what,

I know that my heart,

will always want you.

And care for you.

You will and always be my number one^_^

It's YOU^_^

It wasn't easy for someone like me get out from the comfort zone i had before, but it did help me find who my real friends are ( u know who u are). Struggling from one point to another, process went through and eventually i redeemed myself and back now to business. I'M FINALLY HAPPY. Now, i have new set friends and buddies. But there's one person who really catches my attention ^_^  it's you.


Thinking back when the first time we met, sabi ko "cool xa, well see kung san to papunta." Dated September 15,2011 @ 8:52pm, when we started our first conversation, it's a sort of chatting with some common friends in Facebook, hi&hello thingy. Days&weeks passed, the hi&hello we started end up into something different, we built a mutual feeling no one really expected. I never thought that, from a simple coversation we had before it leads us to what we have now ♥.

@ St. Jude Parish 

Isang desisyon na kailaman ay di ko pagsisihan, we patiently waited, we set time to know each other and we even agree for some things that you never used to. Alam ko na alam mo na isa ka sa mga taong nasa top priority list ko, why? kasi you're the only person who understands and even supported me all through out. Sharing this meaningful quote to you  " I love you for everything that you say and do. I love you for the happiness I feel when you are beside me. I love you because when you are near, the whole world is meaningful." Thank you for giving me the chance to be part of you life and vice versa. You know i♥u.

More People Like Him

I wish...publish ko sana to about "MORE PEOPLE LIKE HIM" but the details remain as draft n lng... it started with "SNOW BEAR",

Random thoughts...

I miss the talks we used to have, I miss the voice I used to hear... I miss hearing your crazy but cool stories, and above all these... I just miss you!

I ofter catch myself constantly wondering how you are, sitting alone with my mind set so far, reminiscing about your smile, voice and touch, damn this life... I'm missing you too much.

Today was just one of those days where everything I did reminded me of you and every song I heard somehow related to you. I hate days like today, because they remind me of the one thing I dont have.

I might not get to see you as often as I'd like, I may not get to hold you in my arms at night, but deep in my heart I know that it's true. No matter what happens... I will always love yo

Guide me.

I wish i could turn back the time and say thank you. We missed you.

BE back...

I'll find time to make new blogs again, it's been a while bloggy.. Write you soOn.

Back to skul.

After 4 years, i'm back as a student but this time not in a fulltime basis, because i still have work to consider in order for me to sustain all my needs and my longing to finish my degree. Anyway, i just missed the fun of doing homeworks, projects, studying and all.

Looking back.. i was so helpless when my freedom as a student was withdrawn due to financial problem, i felt like no one cares for me, i mean no one cares for my education. Someone tried to help me, but nothing happened. I know ate did her best to support me and hopefully continue to support me all through out my stay in our school, but everything changed and i understand that she needs to support her family on top of me.

I have this cousin(madre), i consider her as (mangtas na madre) for some she's mabait and all, for me she's totally NOT!!! She was the only person who suggested to stop the financial support coming from my ate(sister of that freak madre) for my studies. I cried, stumbled, felt like someone betrayed me and the most hurtful part is, she's my first degree cousin.

I think life is really like this for me. I need to stand on my own and prove to them i can get the things i want especially the freedom they took from me (my education). Waittttttttttttttttttttttttttt...this is suppose to be a happy blog. Well going back to the title (back to skul), i hope i can make it to the top, finish this with flying colors. And i hope as well, my family will be proud for my achievements --- working student ---.

Kahapon at Ngayon ( the face behind the mask )

My past isn't that bad unlike with others, it's just that my past taught me how to wear a mask in order for others to know that i exist. It's been like 5 years now that i'm wearing this, and as the year goes by, im enjoying and still enjoying having this. Physically speaking this is not me, the face that I'm wearing now is not the real me(weh?).

Before..

Confidence wise, i don't have that since i suffered from emotional abuse way back from my teenage days. This might be the saddest part in my life that i can think of. Others would say "lahi lagi kag itsura sa imu mga igsoon" " ai mas gwapo gud imu kuya," these line are so over used. Yes they have the looks and brains as well and no one can deny that. I will never forget this person named Niño who said "kaligo ug init tubig para maputi ka" this freak guy helped me realize that i need to do something for myself, i mean the way i look.

Furthermore, i still have friends and barkadas that never look me down despite of these criticisms from others, we have group named ZERKS, all kinds of fun and firsts time i experienced from them (inum,sigarilyo,x-rated movies and all).

And now, facing the reality, i have this...

For those people who used to bully me because of how i look, you can now check my facebook account and see WHO'S JOEL now.http://facebook.com/wheng88

Katotohanan(the truth)

ssssssh.

Ilan tao ba sa mundo ang nagtatago sa isang maskarang mapanlinlang? Ito ba'y isang paraan para matakasan ang hubad na katotohanan?

Nilikha ko itong panihang ito di para talikuran ang nakaraan o takasan ang tunay na  tumatakbo sa kasalukuyan.Mahirap sabihin na ito'y isang likhang isip lamang, subalit ito'y base sa tunay kong karanasan.( hindi ko alam kung panu sisimulan ang kwento ng aking sarili, bahala n c batman).

Tell me more about yourself...joel axalan.

I consider this as one of the questions that im having a hard time to answer, not because im afraid to tell who am i nor telling the real me in writing but because im confuse is to where and how to start telling who the real me. I can't say discreeting will help me, but putting myself into private will help from the criticisms in public.Writing this would be the sign that im ready to share what i have, mentally, emotionally and physically.

Sa isang akda na nabasa ko kamakailan lang, panu kung lahat ng nagpapatibay na ako ay anak ng aking mga magulang ay PEKE!! San ako magsisimulang mgsulat?Wala lang bigla ko lang naisip baka may ganun.(balik tayo sa diskasyon).Let me start, In 22 years of existence i would say, medyo masaya ang disposisyon ko bilang isang nilalang dito(pak!!), sa kadahilanang may pamilya akong masasandalan, mga kapatid, mga kaibigan, mga nagmamamal at minamahal.Looking back to the years that im starting to know what the world is, its a bit hard knowing that comparison and judgements ang nangingibabaw sa lahat. Lima kaming mgkakapatid at ako ang bunso, kami ay namumuhay bilang isang karaniwang pamilya. Kung yaman ang paguusapan wla kami nun,and  i can consider my family belongs to the middle class section in the society. Some says that being the youngest is the best part of the family, well i would say not at all, masasayahan kaba kung lahat ng kilos at galaw mo ay pinupuna at kinukompara sa iba.( duh.)

My friends,officemates,classmates,roomates,seatmates, etc. they used to call me with my first name JOEL, but for those people who knows me well call me with my nickname WHENG.


meaning of my name: JOEL

You Are Level-Headed and Trustworthy

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.

You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.

You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.

You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.

At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.

You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.

Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

i sOO agree:))

First time (masakit)

Never in my wildest dream that i will be hospitalized.The fact that, i can't take the environment having sick people beside me or seeing people suffer from their own sickness and all ( i just don't).But from what happened, i don't have a choice but to indulge myself that im part of them.lol.High fever+ never ending back pain.

                               I just hate seeing needles inserting any part of my body. 

                                     Buti na lng i have these special persons beside me.:))

writer(talento)...

The skill of being a writer, is it made or born to be? How i wish im one of those people who were born to be a writer, not in magazines or in any news papers but, just a simple note that i can express my ideas. I guess in writing i can use any kind of medium(writing materials and language being used). I would say this the first and official note i truly made, i dont care if the grammar i used is incorrect or the sentence constructions are all wrong, definitely i will cater any feedback from you guys:)


Di' sa naiingit, i just checked my friends profile and they have these notes that are very interesting and hindi boring basahin, i guess they have the skill and the brain as well. I asked someone "panu maging writer?" He answered, "kung unsa imu maisip,put that into writings".And yes, this will be the start of my blogging career (palag).


I am a beginner in this so called writing industry, i have my coach that i can ask, certified blogger and all. Di pala basta2 ang ang mgsulat, my rules n dapat i follow and i should know the path of my writings. This is a bit challenging for me, bcoz i have never been a writer before.


The more write ups i make, the more knowledge and experience i will get. I will start reading blogs from my friends. The end for now.